It is so crazy to me that my life has changed so much over the last 3 weeks and everyone else's life is just the same. When we were in the ICU waiting room during H's surgery (really the only time I was away from him) I kept thinking about the other families there. They had obviously been there a long time and how my life was just going on like normal while their world was upside down. It is so crazy.
I can't even look at facebook. H used to tell me I was addicted to it and now that he is gone I can't even get on. I don't expect other people's lives to stop, but it just seems weird to me that they haven't. I know that sounds crazy.
I can't sleep at night. I just don't feel tired. I want to sleep, but the tired just won't come. During the day I am exhausted, but not at night.
Today I talked to the insurance guy from the guy who hit H. He was very emotional and it was weird. The man who hit him found out yesterday that he died. Oddly, I feel badly for that man. I mean he has to live with the fact that he killed someone. I feel bad for my kids and me too since we have to live without H, but I keep thinking about the other guy. I try to put myself in his shoes. The whole thing is just crazy.
I know that feeling of the world still spinning when it feels like yours has suddenly stopped. Know that you are still on our hearts and in our prayers.
ReplyDeleteI remember when Brett died thinking how unfair/weird it was the world was moving on. The Highway Patrol had just left after telling us he didn't make it and in walks a couple ready to deliver. I remember getting angry and wanting to throw something at them. Life does get back into a routine but it will never be the same. You are in my prayers everyday.
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